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Rating: M
Warnings: Angst
Summary: A different take on Bella and Jacob´s conversation at the end of Eclipse and how everything developed from that point on. Told in flashbacks with Quil and Embry acting in the present.
PART 1
PART 2
( and so she is gone... )
Reminders of a time that almost made sense.
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As a child Bella always thought she would one day die because of her clumsiness. Stumble
a car, fall down the staircase, cut her wrists open by
When she grew older she was sure that her magnetic pull for danger would be her death. At a
And then it was some big void that threatened to overwhelm her. Something she could not
But that she kept a secret, unable to explain it to herself and not wanting to worry anybody
And so it seemed an ironic turn of faith when Bella returned to her roots in the very end.
It was a foggy morning, cold and unpleasant; depressing.
Embry had taken Hannah for a walk on the beach and Bella sat in Emily’s kitchen, watching
Bella smiled, watching the tiny fingers clutch at Emily’s chest, soft squishing sounds and
It was a rare moment of peace, a moment where the loss and the almost´s and the in vain´s
Laughter outside made Bella’s smile brighten even more, her daughter’s voice like bells in her
Storming outside to have her daughter back from Embry´s enthusiastic babysitting-nature,
She pulled herself up before Embry even reached her and Emily appeared at the door with a
They told her to see a doctor straight away but Bella only told them they were being
Bella spent that day at Charlie’s house, Sue always being such an adorable sort-of
“Hit your head again?” Charlie asked in a matter-of-fact voice when Bella sat on the couch,
They have cake and tea, played with Hannah in the backyard, reading, talking. A nice day.
Bella left her daughter with her father that evening, wanting to attend a bonfire with the
So she kissed her daughter goodbye after humming her to sleep, stroked her soft cheek with
It was two hours later when Bella started to feel a headache, ignoring it – not mentioning it to
Emily eyed her with concern the entire night, still worried about her. But she kept telling
The sun set and Bella got up, taking of her shoes and slowly wandering towards the shore,
The orange sky comforted her, reminding her more of her daughter these days than of Jacob.
Emily smiled softly as she watched Bella standing in the water in front of the magnificent
This picture would later become the memory Emily chose to be the last she had of Bella Swan
Suddenly Bella just dropped to the ground, water splashing softly when she hit the damp sand
They rushed her to hospital but her heart already stopped beating the moment she lost
The doctors told them that her brain had been bleeding for several hours and that she had
It seemed odd to them – that after all these years of struggle and fight Bella’s heart just
That she gave up so easily.
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And so she is gone. Disappeared just like Jacob had. Nowhere to be found anymore. Only in
Charlie and Sue take her because Billy is incapable of raising another child, too weak –
Renée, who arrives a day after Bella passed, and who might be the most capable person to
The idea of forcing Bella’s restless being into one dark place for the rest of time seems so inappropriate to all of them that they soon decide on burning her, her funeral being held this very morning.
They are all barefoot at the beach, damp sand clinging to their toes, the sun about to rise, a reddish glow already predicting the breaking dawn.
And when the sun breaks through the clouds and illuminates the day they let the wind and waves carry Bella’s ashes away, carry her to all places, letting her restless soul find peace.
There is not much talking – hurt, anger, sadness and frustration to present for everyone, no
They say their silent goodbyes, hoping that passing was the step Bella needed to finally find
It are the happy memories that run through Quil, Embry and Seth’s mind as they stand at First
They think of the motorcycles which are still hidden underneath a bush behind the garage,
All they think about is the happy moments, the rare moments of peace, the moments in which
Embry slowly opens his fist above the fire and three items fall into the orange flames.
the big houses and the girls.
Quil is next, a picture of him and an eleven-year-old Jacob next to a Harley Davidson – their
The three of them sigh deeply as the last rays of sunlight glow on the far horizon and Seth
It is a strange picture: the images slowly burning away, inch by inch turning into crumpled
“I bet he is complaining about us destroying hours and hours of filigree work right now,”
For a second they are silent, only waves and cracking woods filling their ears. But finally Quil
“Sure, sure,” he says with a bright smile on his face, winking towards the very last inch of
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the end
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